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Feeling Sorry for Myself?

Feeling Sorry for Myself?

Yes, I do feel sorry for myself sometimes, but not last Sunday.

I am a football fan – NFL specifically. I have been since I was a little girl (wow, I am now 51!!) I remember spending so many Sundays with my mom, watching our favorite San Francisco 49ers, cheering them on and loving all of our cute players…oh, I mean talented players! My love for football has never changed. I spent many years with my now ex-husband watching games week after week and enjoying every win. NFL football has been a tradition in my life…

Until I fell into a slump.

I slumped after my divorce. I just couldn’t watch the game by myself. I felt sad and sorry for myself because I was allllll alone, nobody to enjoy the game with. I dated here and there which helped those autumn and winter Sundays, but otherwise I never really felt inspired to watch a game alone.

About a year and a half ago, I changed my thinking. I decided that football, yes FOOTBALL should be a  part of my life that I enjoy, no matter who else is around.  I began to watch again; Sundays, Monday nights and Thursday nights (unless I really didn’t care about the teams). And now I REALLY will get into the games!  My kids laugh at how I  cheer so loudly and scream at the terrible plays. And you know what?  I find that I am happy to be myself and to just BE with the game.

Sunday was Superbowl LII (52 – I tell my kids they know how old I am turning by the number of Superbowls there have been!). Did I feel bad that I couldn’t be with my mom and brother, or my daughter and her family? Of course I did. But when 3:00pm rolled around and the first kickoff was made, I was hooked.  What a GAME!!!!!  I wasn’t really a fan of either team, but since the New England Patriots have won so many times, I was a Philadelphia Eagles fan for the day. And boy was I given a gift that so many fans also received. I cheered and booed and also watched all of the commercials. I sung along with Justin Timberlake and felt a bit of nostalgia when they superimposed Prince on the halftime show. All in all a Sunday afternoon and evening well spent and well enjoyed.


What can I take away from this experience? The fact that it’s important for me to realize that even though I am on my own a lot, it’s so very important to enjoy activities on my own that maybe I used to do with others. And with football, that’s how it is. Of course I enjoy watching with others, but it is perfectly ok, and even great, to enjoy in the moment something that makes me happy – both alone and with others. It’s a constant undertaking to keep my health monitored, mental and otherwise. I am proud of myself when I can make strides such as this…learning what is healthy for me.

I hope you can find your enjoyment…even if you typically spend time with others, enjoy for YOU what you may have thought that you lost.

Take Care


Photo Credits:

unsplash-logoRyan Walton

unsplash-logoKeith Johnston


Who me? Frustrated? Annoyed?

Who me? Frustrated? Annoyed?

Do you ever have that little thing that just annoys the sh!t out of you? Something you plan for and then things totally get messed up? Well that was my afternoon and I’m still feeling grumpy!!!

If you have read any of my first few blog posts, you will know that I am recovering from 2 surgeries that have left me pretty laid up and not able to walk hardly at all. My brother came up to see me this weekend which was great! We had a lot of nice times to chat and he also took my boys to see Star Wars which they all loved (and yes, I was a little envious!!) Anyway, I woke up this morning after another restless night’s sleep and felt discouraged, tired (exhausted more like), and just wanted to look forward to a good afternoon football game. I felt I was not the greatest company to my brother this morning, and he said that I wasn’t supposed to entertain him!! But I still felt rather poopy. I hoped that watching the game cheering would help my frame of mind.

So…the football game… I love NFL football. I am not a diehard fan to all the teams and stats, etc, but I AM a diehard 49ers fan. I remember being a little girl and my mom and I cheering Montana, Clark, Rice and everyone else to many victories. No, I know they aren’t doing very well this year, but a fan, I will always be.


Where I live, I get all of the 49ers games, always. Or so I thought. I know I am rambling about this, but I was soooooo upset 1:25pm arrived and there was a different game on!!! What the hell? How could they do this??? To Me? (Well, ok that is a little dramatic!!) But it made me so angry and frustrated and like I was 2 years old not getting what I wanted.
I know, it’s only a football game, but it was that little thing that just annoyed me to no end. Since I am fairly immobile these days I look forward to a little thing such a game.

Alas, I went to my room to pout, to try and sleep, only to hear my 18 year old son being pissed off at the world because his new tv wasn’t working, to hearing my cat incessantly scratch on my door to get fed…hmmmm I think something is in the air around here!!!

So I guess that is enough of my grousing. It looks like it is the 4th qtr and the niners are ahead!!! Good for them and I am cheering in my mind.
Share with me some little frustration that tackled your mind today. Luckily, the annoying feelings go away, but they sure aren’t fun when we are in the midst of them

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