Author: My Life in the Moment

To “Friend” or not to “Friend”

To “Friend” or not to “Friend”

Yes, that is the question!  I must say I really do enjoy social media. But I don’t think the appeal for me has ever quite been for the “social” part. Years ago I joined Facebook to see pics of my children and their schoolmates and to feel a little closer to their world. There was a very sad point in my life when my younger daughter moved in with her dad when she was 16 and she never spoke to me – goodness for almost a year and a half. I was able to have social media to catch a glimpse of her and know she was ok. I am soooo very thrilled to stay that 4 years later she has given me a beautiful granddaughter, and my daughter and I are closer now than we have ever been. Anyway, I would see my kids pics but I found that I enjoyed Facebook for “liking” news sites, entertainments sites, hobby sites and so on. I could view interesting articles that pertained to my liking all in one place. I still do that with Facebook and Instagram and others. I  do waste more time than I should scrolling through these pages, but honestly, I am ok with it.

 

Then there are the so-called social media friends. People that you may have met, once, people you work with, and other random folks. Our sites all of a sudden can have hundreds of “friends” that we hardly know. We see little snippets of their lives scroll through our news feeds as they see snippets of our lives as well. Why? What are either one of us getting out of this? We don’t really know one other!!

I have cleared out my Facebook acquaintances over the years. I am usually around 100 people on my list. Even that number seems high. I am a naturally more introverted person, so my social circle is pretty darn small. Looking at those 100 names made me think, “hmmm.”

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I came to a realization about a week ago that maybe it was time to go through my friends list and update it. As an aside, I think I may be feeling a wee bit sorry for myself right now since I have had such a rough go with this hip replacement. Anyway, the day before my surgery I made a post and there were the usual, “I’ll pray for you,” “good luck,” ” let me know if you need anything,” etc. Don’t get me wrong, the sentiments were nice. But what surprised me is basically not a single “friend” asked how I was doing (except a few workmates). It rather surprised me and made me a bit sad. My oldest daughter reminded me how that is a problem with social media…. people really don’t interact with others like you think they might or you hope they would.

So, I have done a bit of clearing out on my Facebook account (my other social media doesn’t have this “friend” problem). I of course have kept all of my family, I still have coworkers on the list,  and a few random folks. I feel strange hitting that “unfriend” button with so many, but truly, I don’t know them or if I do we have no contact on social media.  I don’t want them to take offense or get mad at me removing them from my page. Is that silly? See what Social Media is doing to our brains?

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My list is down to 64 people and that seems ok with me….for the moment. I still feel worried that I have upset the people I got rid of. I feel unsure about how they will now feel about me. But, I KNOW this is the part of me that talks when my brain wants to be goofy. It’s that part of my self-esteem, or rather lack up that haunts me. It’s part of managing my Bipolar and BPD that is so crucial in positive mental health.

I will be OK.

And so will YOU!!!

Jenny

 

You are a PRIORITY, not an OPTION!

You are a PRIORITY, not an OPTION!

Have you ever heard the term “self-care?” It is a term that you hear in the media, when you are reading, or listening to a podcast or talking to your therapist. Self-care is a crucial part of managing  mental illness, but it can be so easily forgotten about., especially whe we are in the midst of a mental upset. So how do you go about practicing self-care? It can be difficult to get started. Some of us even feel like we don’t “deserve” down time, but that is not the case. It’s easy to read a list in a magazine article and say, “ok great ideas, but unrealistic for me.” I know that I don’t have a luxurious bath arrangement where I can put candles around and relax. I know when my kids were younger it was all I could do to get 10 minutes alone in my room – taking a walk alone in a park was not realistic with 4 little ones at home.  Read a book?  Usually when I need self-care, my mind is so filled with “stuff” that the last thing I can do is sit down and concentrate on a book. Have you ever felt these things? Those lists of self care can be awfully daunting (and depressing).

The KEY is to make YOUR OWN list!!  Find what works for YOU!

Making a self-care list that works for you is so important. When your stress is high and your patience is low, taking a look at that list and picking a couple of ideas to bring your SELF back to a place of calm is wonderful. With time you might be able to just look at your list and feel a bit more peace.

Another piece of your self-care list is to make it fun, or beautiful or interesting to look at. If you are artistic or not, you can make a list worth looking at. The more you WANT to look at it, the more you can sort out the ideas in your busy mind and find a self-care item that can work for you – in that very moment. Having a selection of self care activities is also important. If painting your nails makes you feel better but you are at work, you may need something that works at work!!

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Keep your list everywhere! On your mirror, in your phone, on a file of your computer, on your bedside stand.  Keep that list in places that you can easily access it. When you are feeling stressed or just don’t think you can cope in that moment, have that list where you can look at it and pick what may be right for you for right now.  It’s amazing when you come up with your own stress reducers your success in self-care and self-calm is so much higher.

Here are a few of things on my list. I know when I engace in certain calming activities that I am trying to shake my brain into a new mode of thinking as quickly as I can. I think of all of my senses (vision, hearing, taste, touch and smell) and what may work best if I am stressed:

  1. I love those little strawberry candies that are wrapped in red foil to look like a strawberry. Do you know the ones I mean?  I keep them at work all of the time so I can suck on them and have a little mental break if I need one. The sweet taste and sugar sensation can bring me to a happier moment.
  2. Going outside is always a good choice for me. I don’t necessarily have to walk anywhere or do anything special, just getting outside, no matter the weather, taking some long deep breaths and finding some Calm
  3. Play with my dogs. For those of you with pets, you know how great o\pet therapy  can be. Getting a few treats and playing with my dogs or maybe relaxing with my cat next to me is very healing.
  4. Writing – writing can calm me – be it for this blog, for myself or just getting out “blech” from my brain to paper. I used to only write in black composition books, but I have come more adept at writing or typing whenever I need do. It is very brain cleansing.

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How do you  practice self-care?  Again, above anything I can say is MAKE YOUR OWN LIST!  You know what is good for YOU. There are tons of websites with self care ideas. Check them out and find what works and write it down. Seeing a huge list of someone else’s ideas can be stressful in itself when you are having a tough moment.

Let me know your self-care ideas!

Jenny

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BEWARE! Blogging and Self Esteem

BEWARE! Blogging and Self Esteem

Hello lovely readers! So I had great intentions when I started writing this blog page. I wanted to offer my knowledge and support and maybe make a buck or two along the way. Granted, I have only been writing for a short time, but those of us with self-esteem issues and if your are just starting to create your blog page:

BEWARE!!!

Writing is a great outlet for me and I believe it can be for anyone. I used to write emails to my therapist; long drawn out details of my life and where I was at and what was going on. We had an agreement that he would not answer my email, but he would read them and we could discuss them at any appointment. Some people might find that cold of him, but I believe it was how he needed to set his boundaries and I have always respected that. Even in the latest hours of the night and darkest moments of my writing, I knew he would read my words, digest them and be prepared to talk about them. And that was enough for me.

Blogging is similar in the fact that I think someone is “out there” reading my words and taking something away from them. The problem is those damn analytical stats that are available to you 24/7. Do you know what I am talking about? No matter what platform you use for blogging (WordPress, which I use, Blogger, Reddit, etc), they all have a page where you can review your readership numbers. Which blogs have been read, how many people have visited your site, on and on. If you are a data person, it’s quite interesting. If you struggle with self-worth or positive self-esteem, this page can be a bit harrowing to look at.

Here is a look at a portion of my current analytics page:

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Have you ever been on a diet and you start obsessing about the scale? You check the scale at least once a day, if not more. It can be depressing to watch the scale go up and you are sooooo happy when it goes down. And when it goes up you beat yourself up because of that last bowl of ice cream you ate or some yummy donut. It can be an emotional rollercoaster. For some of us at least.

I have noticed a similar feeling with watching the analytics page on my blog. I feel great when I see more readers and feel rather a failure when there is hardly anyone looking at the page. I decide that I want to give up and figure nobody wants to hear what I have to say. It is a vicious game being played in my brain. I know I just need to “STOP” and look at the reasons why I am really writing this blog and determine if it’s ok that my readership is small. Am I enjoying the process of writing, creating, finding photos to post and more? The answer is yes! I do enjoy this whole blogging process. It gives me  a focus and gives me pleasure. I just have to throw away that damn “scale!”

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So if you are new to blogging or have been around for while, try not to look at the analytics page. At least not so often. Those of us struggling with self esteem or mental illness need whatever help we can give ourselves to stay on track.

So WRITE, CREATE, ENJOY what you are doing. Ultimately, it’s for your own benefit and feel good about what you are doing. At least for this moment.

Jenny

When PAIN gets us down..what to do?

When PAIN gets us down..what to do?

I am stepping away from the blog challenge. While some of the topics are interesting to me, some are not and I would rather write about topics that provide both myself and you some knowledge, laughter, hints, whatever the case may me. I am still trying to define what my niche may be in writing this blog. Mental Illness and managing a mental illness is near and dear to my heart. Having diagnoses of Bipolar and Borderline Personality Disorder keep me having to always stay on top of my health, mental and otherwise. I hope I can share with you what has worked for me over the years.  It’s can be a struggle, I know.

Have you ever dealt with long-term pain? If so, you know how incredibly hard it can be to “keep your chin up.” Chronic pain can drain every bit of our being, both physically and mentally. We want to be positive, but it’s hard. We appreciate everyone’s concern, but it can be hard to either not complain, or else just let it all out and talk about every single painful twitch. We sleep like crap almost every night and we are sick and tired of feeling totally immobile. Have we been there? YES!

My chronic pain with my hip has been going on for at least 4 years. I had surgery last year and then a hip replacement this year that had serious complications. I am now sitting here wondering if I will be using a walker the rest of my life, I am 51!

So what do we do? I am hopeful, but not convinced that this long-term pain will resolve. I can only imagine how those of you living in chronic pain LIVE at times?  Let’s look at a few ideas.

I found this great slide show article from WebMD that give some advice on easing your pain STRESS:

https://www.webmd.com/pain-management/ss/slideshow-pain-tips

I laughed when the first slide was Excercise!!!! We sure don’t want to exercise when we hurt!! But, I KNOW it helps. It may not help the pain at hand, but it keeps us strong. And for those of us who are not particularly mobile, get some handweights (or ankle weights if your shoulders hurt); do some stretches…just a little is better than nothing. I have an alarm set on my phone at 11:00am and 5:00pm everyday to do my exercises. That keeps me on track.

Relaxation (find at least one or two positions where we can be comfortable), avoid alcohol and cigarettes, give ourselves some down time, journal (or blog), and most important, ASK FOR HELP if we are feeling that dark cloud surround us a little more than normal.

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Pain is NO FUN! It’s hard to deal with and when we are in an extended period of pain it can be even more troubling to handle than “normal”  short term pain.  Remember, we are not alone in our pain, and we are not alone in our healing. It’s ok if we don’t want to talk, but starting to completely withdraw can make our mental health suffer.

Share with me how you live with your pain, chronic or otherwise. Please share any hints you may have. Thanks and take care of YOU!

Jenny

Go Grocery Shopping with Me!!!!

Go Grocery Shopping with Me!!!!

For today I am asked to show you what’s in my refrigerator – EEK!!!!! NOOOOOO!!!! Let’s just say my fridge needs a thorough cleaning and I am not quite wanting to show it to you. So instead I thought I would take you to the grocery store with me, or rather show you what I bought on today’s outing.

It was nice to get outside. The weather here is unusually warm and so a trip to the store with my son was a good thing. I still can’t get used to cruising around the store on one of those scooters. My eye level is so thrown off that I can’t seem to shop correctly. Let’s just hope I don’t HAVE to get used to it – that here soon I will be able to walk once again. So I scootered around, hoping that the battery wouldn’t die and with my son’s help,  picked out a few things from the store.

It’s funny how my shopping has changed over the years. I have 4 children, 2 who are out of the house, one that is almost out and my youngest who is home with me for at least a couple more years. Grocery shopping is  something I have always enjoyed doing. I know, that sounds crazy, but when I was married and my kids were little, I could leave the kids with their dad and spend my time shopping for a family of 6 and take my time. To this day, grocery shopping offers some peace and yes, a bit of stress reduction. I always go when I know I am not in a rush. I guess it’s a tool in my my toolbox for positive mental health.

So yes, my shopping has changed from TONS of food to just small amounts once maybe twice a week. I think back to the huge cartfuls of food and wow, I should have been stressed!!! So today was just a small trip with few items:

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Yum! I like having fresh fruit in the house. Bananas are always a necessity and this time of year little cutie oranges are sooo tasty. Fuji apples happen to be both mine and my son’s favorite, and today a couple of avocados as well. I like having toast and smushing avocado and spreading it on the toast with some salt and pepper. Tasty and healthy.

 

 

 

 

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Here are just a few non food items. I always like to have a candle lit in winter time and this tropical fruit one smells so good. Time to stock up on deoderant, and this is the hair gel that my son has found that he really likes (for under $10) L’Oreal Out of Bed Texturizer , and you can find it on Amazon for under $5.00!!

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Here is most everything else that we bought today. I think a gallon of milk and a half gallon of mint chocolate chip ice cream was already put away. We enjoy making breakfast burritos, sometimes for dinner as well; eggs, sausage, tortillas, cheese and it tastes so good and is so easy. I don’t really have any dinner type food, but I know our freezer has raviolis, chicken breasts, ground beef and veggies.  And as you can see, cookies, orange chicken, cottage cheese and tortilla chips round up the shopping adventure.

 

 

What do you shop for?  Are you making any health resolutions or changing your eating habits now that we are into 2018?  I don’t feel like I eat UN-healthy. Could I eat better?  Of course. But to be perfectly honest I do treat myself more often right now during my recuperation. It’s rather depressing to not be able to walk without a walker or really go anywhere, so a special sweet treat makes the a day a little brighter.

Do you enjoy any of the items I purchased today?  Let me know!

Jenny

Love to Binge (watch)!

Love to Binge (watch)!

Hello and Happy New Year!! I hope today finds you healthy and filled with Peace. It was a quiet New Year’s for me, though I did hear firecrackers go off around the neighborhood. I am thankful that my dogs don’t suffer from the panic of fireworks. I always feel so sad thinking about dogs that are in this state of fear and they just can’t do anything about it. Even us humans can have a very hard time dealing with certain fears. It takes a lot of mindful thinking to be able to get through moments that we just think are unbearable. And those that have panic attacks….they are horrid. I suffered from them for years and years;  they just happen upon you  when you are least expecting it and you don’t know why. It takes hard work, but you can learn to understand what is going on when you are in such a state of panic and start to calm yourself. So back, to the poor dogs, I wish they could calm themselves in those times of fear.

Here is my Cooper when he was baby…so darn cute I just had to share.

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I rather digressed from my topic at hand. Today I am asked about TV viewing. Do I binge watch shows? Yes, not all of the time, but yes. I grew up in the days of just plain tv – no Netflix or Hulu or Amazon. Besides being able to watch episodes one after another, the absolute best invention in TV history is that pause button!  To be able to pause live TV!! I was astounded when that feature came to pass – AMAZING!! I can pause to talk to someone, I can pause and skip commercials, I can even rewind from my pause to watch something again!!  When I was recently in the hospital the tv didn’t have a pause button. I realized how much I use it and how awesome it really is.

So what am I watching these days?

1.Grey’s Anatomy – my oldest daughter got me on this show a few years ago. She convinced me to give it a try, and I was hooked!! I spent a whole summer binge watching the seasons – gosh were there 11 at the time?  And she and I were both so excited when it came back to television with new seasons that are just as good.  I am (im)patiently waiting for the next season

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2. Downton Abbey – I never could watch it because it was not on live streaming, or so I thought. I just found it last week on Amazon Prime Video for free! I am so happy because being laid up, I really needed a good long show to watch and this is great! I love the show and the costumes are just beautiful as well as the scenery.

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3. MSNBC – this is my go-to news channel to watch when I am not watching local news. I like most of the reporters, but UGH! Can these news channels talk about anything besides politics?  It get’s so very tiring. At least watching my local news and then ABC Nightly News can bring a bit of diversity to the news.  I do enjoy watching Meet The Press with Chuck Todd. Great guests? Great Topics? Interesting Interviews?  Yes that is true, but I mostly watch it because Chuck Todd is so damn cute!!!! Hahahaha, it’s true!

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4. San Francisco 49ers – they have been my team for probably 40 years!!! Oh goodness I feel old!  But I love watching them. A few weeks ago, my Dish programming didn’t have them on (see my blog.Who me? Frustrated?. I guess I wasn’t the only person upset because their games are back on my channels. Oh and is it ok to mention cute again? Our new quarterback, Jimmy Garoppolo makes our losing season a bit more bearable to watch.

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So that’s about all that I have on my TV these days. Do I like to binge watch?  Yes, it has its positives. What about you?  What shows do you enjoy? Do you have certain genres of shows that you like depending on your mood?  Let me know!

Jenny

Goals, Non-Goals…it’s all good!!

Goals, Non-Goals…it’s all good!!

I am again taking a bit of a change from the 30 day challenge, especially since it is New Year’s eve. This time of year always seems to be about organization and goal planning and getting rid of the old and bringing in the new. I remember as a teenager making lists on my goals for the upcoming year only to realize that I never stuck to them. So I stopped doing that. I realized that the way my brain and life work are not as structured as sticking to lists. I would rather have general ideas for goals and not let myself down if I don’t achieve them.

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On this New Year’s Eve I am thinking about the future and how things may evolve over time. Since I am laid up and not able to do much of anything physical, my mind has time to mull things over. That can be a positive, but also has it’s negatives. So here are some of my thoughts as I ponder life in the next year:

  1. I am happy with where my mental health is at. I don’t always have good days (who doesn’t have a bad day at times!), but overall I am at a place that I am managing my mental illnesses (Bipolar and Borderline Personality Disorder) very successfully. I even consider the fact that I don’t fall into the criteria for BPD like I used to. I take a combination of medications that works right for me and I use the tools I have learned over the years to manage my stress better, my self-injury urges and overall daily living. HOORAY!!!!!
  2. My physical health is still uncertain. My hip replacement gone wrong is starting to heal after the second surgery. I would love to say my goal is to hike and bike and walk and walk some more, but honestly I am not convinced yet. My physical therapist is being positive but even she is unsure how my healing will go because I had such an unusual situation. So, for now I will continue my exercises, push myself a little more when I feel up to it and hope that the coming year gives me healing and comfort from this pain.
  3. I would like to make some kind of goals for my future. Hahaha, I know I just said I didn’t make goals, but I don’t know, I am trying to figure out SOMETHING!  I am 51 years old and don’t really have a direction in life. I have a decent job. My youngest child is almost 17 so he won’t me home for many more years, I love being a grandma but I also know my kids have their own lives and I am not part of that on a daily basis. I am single which may play a bigger role than I realize in my feeling a bit lost in my future mind. I don’t know, I guess I don’t know what I am supposed to Do or Be at this juncture in life and moving forward. Do you have a way to goal set for a 50+ single woman? Would love your comments and ideas.
  4. Writing this blog is making me happy. I know I have only been writing for a few weeks, but I really do enjoy it. I am hoping as I move forward with it I can write about mental health and offer ideas and thoughts and insight into my own struggles and achievements with mental illness. I know it helps reading or hearing about someone who has “lived it.” I would like to give back because others have helped me so much over the years.

Other than what I have mentioned I don’t have any big goals or dreams for the year. Yes, a clean closet and a garage sale and general organization in the house would be great, but I am not holding myself accountable if that doesn’t get done.

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Tell me about your plans for 2018, or your non-plans!!! To all of my readers I wish you a happy and healthy 2018. I know there will be tough times during the year, but  I encourage you to seek out people who you enjoy, silence and Peace that is essential and to be gentle with yourself.

Jenny

It’s Opposite Day!!!

It’s Opposite Day!!!

If any of you have lived through the era of Spongebob Squarepants you may remember “Opposite Day.” Spongebob and Patrick get into all kinds of shenanigans with saying and doing everything opposite than normal. It’s rather funny, I know that I  have heard the episode multiple times because my 4 kids were definitely Spongebob fans.

I am making today’s challenge opposite of what it “should” be. The challenge question asked for me to write today are what are my worst habits. Oh goodness, really? Do I really want to sit here and write about a bunch of negative things? Or at least what I assume are negative about me? No thank you!!  For those of us who live with mental illness we know how hard it can be to have positive self esteem. My life took a real downturn many years ago around the time of my divorce and my self esteem hit rock bottom. Probably somewhere under that rock is where my self esteem actually was hiding. My mental illnesses intensified which led to self-injury, horrible self-worth and more. It has taken me years and years to build my self esteem back up. Even today I have hard time believing that I am “good enough,” or else sometimes a circumstance arises where I fall right back under that rock. Luckily I have learned to climb out, but it’s not always easy.

So, in honor of Opposite Day, I will say a few positive things about myself.

1.I think I always will say that I have been a good mom. Not the best, but who really is?   I love being a mom, with all of its ups and downs and in-betweens. Even during my darkest days I held on to the fact that I loved my kids more than anything and did the best I could at being a single loving mother. The 4 of them are my first joys and always will be.

2, So I think I am a good listener. Lol sometimes that can be hard because you get with a person who LOVES to talk about themselves and never shuts up!! Hahaha, but over all, yes I like to listen and offer caring support to others when I can.

3. I am dedicated to my job. Most of the time. I work for a non-profit which means I am helping others and that is good. It is a very stressful job which can be disadvantageous to my brain health. But I know I work hard and do the best I can. As I am in a long-term recovery at home right now, it is hard to think about work, but I will get back to it in time.

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Oh gosh, my mind just went blank!! Seriously blank!  I guess I have put myself on the spot and my mind starts reverting to negative perceptions of myself instead of positive. This damn Opposite Day isn’t working! I should really try harder to come up with things, but I think it better if I stop because my brain is feeling a bit overwhelmed and bad habit thoughts are creeping in.

Do you ever try coming up with positives to boost your self-esteem? Do you try daily affirmations or some other trick to feel good about YOU. I would love to hear your ideas.

Jenny

It’s ok, take a peek!!

It’s ok, take a peek!!

Day 8 – hooray I have made it a over a week and I am quite enjoying writing these blogs. When I saw my therapist on Thursday he commented that writing is always a positive activity for me. I don’t always write about cheerful things, but the process of sitting down and getting my thoughts on “paper” is good for me. So for today we are taking a look into my purse. At first I thought it kind a silly challenge questions, but the more I work on this, the more I am enjoying the process.

Yes I have always used a purse. Even when I was in college with a backpack I would have a small purse stuffed inside. Having mobility issues over the past few years has changed my purse style. I love having a pretty bag slung over my shoulder  (and also necessary when carrying my kids when they were little.) Due to having to use a cane it makes the whole sling over look harder. Who would have thought?! Something that I can hold on to the straps and not worry about them sliding all over is a necessity.  I also don’t spend a lot of money on my handbag. Thrift stores have some great finds or I check out Target or Walmart or sometimes Burlington Coat Factory if I feel like splurging. I also use one bag at a time. I know some women change out purses to go with their outfits but I just stick with the one.

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Here is my current purse. I have not had it for too long so I still really like it.  It has lots of nice pockets and not too big as to lose everything in the bottom. I tend to keep my purse fairly tidy, so really what I am showing you is about what I found when I started (except a few gum wrappers!) The green ribbon on the front is to support mental illness. I went to a state NAMI conference and they gave us these pins. It really does mean a lot to me.

When I cam to figuring out how to show you the contents of my purse I really had fun with this. I thought of doing a small video, but decided this was more in my comfort zone.

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I’ll give you a little tour of what’s here and why:

  1. My eyeglasses case and reading glasses. My son laughs because I have so many dollar store glasses around the house, but in my purse I have just the one pair. Usually.
  2. This is my holder for my business cards. In this day and age of the internet and email and social media, we don’t hand out cards too often, but I have a few and this little container is so pretty. I think I got it on Amazon.
  3. These are the two kinds of pills I usually keep with me. Ibuprofen I have on hand for aches and pains and the prescription is for lorazepam. I feel so good that I rarely have to take the lorazepam anymore. During my really hard years of my mental illnesses I had sooooo much anxiety that having these anti-anxiety meds were very important. I still keep them in my purse because every now and again I find myself in a situation where my anxiety level starts to skyrocket and I know that it is aok to have this medication handy.
  4. Ahhhh my favorite gum!!!! Wrigley’s 5 gum in peppermint is the best gum ever!!! Well at least in my opinion. It lasts longer than any other gum and the flavor is awesome!
  5. Just a couple of pens, nothing special. But why is it when I really need a pen I can’t find one in my purse?!
  6. This is my little elephant. I am surprised I have never named him because he has sure been a lifesaver. I think I bought him about 10 years ago and he is a great little critter to hold onto when I am stressed and having anxiety. I can pull him out in a meeting or classroom or any time I am anxious and I can smush him all around in my hands going rather unnoticed.  I really should name him. Any thoughts?
  7. I like to have a little hand cream in my purse. This Neutrogena is good if you have parched hands. It is a little to thick for my liking but the size is perfect. I’ll have to find something new when this one runs out.
  8. My wallet – I LOVE my wallet!! I bought it at the same time as my purse (at Walmart). It has all of the perfect slots and pockets needed for all my cards and bills. It’s funny how incredibly particular I am about my wallet.
  9. Keys – work, house, car, mailbox. They are easy to find with that blue and white key ring and its pretty as well.
  10. These are a selection of lipsticks and a mascara that I have in my purse right now:
    1. Arbonne Orchid
    2. Avon ‘Totally Twig’
    3. Maybelline Super Stay matte ink ‘Dreamer’
    4. Ulta Auto Lip Liner ‘Spice’
    5. Avon ‘Toasted Rose’
    6. Revlon ‘HD Desert’
    7. Avon True Color Wide Awake Mascara
    8. The little round container is an olive oil lip balm from Davis Farmers Market   Davis is where I grew up so I always have a special fondness when I use this creamy balm.
  11. Coins – yes not that exciting except when you have A LOT of them! I never put my coins in the coin section of my wallet. I let them drop to the bottom of my purse. When I clean things out I add those coins to a jar and watch the money grow.
  12. My sunglasses. I can’t go without them but just as with my readers and my purse and wallet, I don’t spend a lot of money on my sunglasses. I swear when I have spent a little more than normal, I lose them! Ugh!! So I stay with the cheapies.

Well there you have it – the contents of my purse. Like I said I really did enjoy this exercise and I hope you enjoyed taking a peek and maybe getting some ideas for your purse organization.

Jenny

Pet Peeves…..UGH!!!!

Pet Peeves…..UGH!!!!

Oh my goodness, pet peeves!!!  I think some days my irritations are much more than others. I don’t know if that is because of the weather, my sleep the night before, my illness. I would say all of those combined.  Anyway, pet peeves truly are annoyingly frustrating!!

Are you sound sensitive? If you are you know exactly where I am coming from. There are sounds during the day that drive me cuckoo!  At work if someone is quietly tapping their foot it aggravates the hell out of me. If a clock is ticking I want to take the batteries out. Commotion noise is awful as well. Hahahaha just thinking about it is not a good thing!!

Tick-Tock-spillwords

There is another noise out in this world that is awful. I won’t describe it but suffice it to say I get immediate flashbacks to my abuse as young girl. 40 years later I cannot “undo” this sound-memory from my life. It is actually a PTSD type reaction. Anger and sickness is what I usually feel from this. Maybe someday I will be able trash this sound as a pet peeve.

Ok chalk – yes CHALK. I CAN’T HANDLE IT!!  How it looks, how it sounds, its smell, on and on and on!  I really don’t know how I got this weirdness about chalk but it sure is strong. Even thinking about I get the shivers!!!! Let’s not think about it.

Did you know there are lists for pet peeves?  Huffington Post has a list of 76!! I decided not to look at it because I didn’t want to add to my own personal list!!

I’m sure I have more pet peeves, but I don’t really want to think about them. This is part of managing my mental health that I need aware of: understand that I have pet peeves and irritations, but not necessarily get wrapped up in how they affect me.

Share with me some of your irritations – if you dare!!!

Jenny

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