Don’t Hold Me To It!!

Don’t Hold Me To It!!

me polaroid So it seems that many people who start blogs use a 30 day blog challenge to get them into the writing habit. I have looked at a bunch of these challenge lists and I don’t really like all of the questions. Hmmmm, Jenny, you could make your own list?! Grand idea, but I think I will stick with the one I have.

I will start this challenge telling you that there is high likelihood that I will end up on different topics or just not doing the complete challenge all together, but who knows, I may surprise myself!

Day one of this challenge says to introduce myself and use a current photo. So this is me. I am 51 years old and I think I mentioned in another blog that I recently decided to embrace my age (well, that may be an overstatement), and let my hair go gray. Funny how this picture  may hair isn’t particularly gray. Hahaha, I think I need to find some new shampoo to brighten my silver. Any ideas? Anyway, I have 4 wonderful children, 2 girls, 2 boys (23, 20, 18 and 16). I have been truly blessed with 3 grandchildren and am able to see them quite often. Being a mother has been the one “job” in my life that I have loved more than anything. It is what defined me for so many years and for that I am so happy. Now being a grandmother, I have a whole new gift to love.

I am single and have been for over 12 years (wow, more years than I was married!). I have my ups and downs with being single as I suppose many of us do at this point in our lives. There are times when I so wish I could have a close romantic and personal relationship and other times where my life feels fine without having to seek out a relationship such as that. That’s where I am right now in my life and I am content.

My career life has run the gamut from owning a restaurant, working as a special needs aide, managing a garden center and now a grants manager for a non profit. I don’t think I have ever really truly found my “spot” in the work world. I suppose there is still time. For now I have a decent job in an organization that helps others so that is good.

For the physical/mental part of who I am there have been a lot of challenges. My body feels well beyond it’s 51 years which is rather depressing, but I am trying to heal from recent surgeries and become more physically fit. My mental life has been quite tumultuous. Years and years of dealing with a panic disorder and some depression which as I aged popped into over a decade of learning to live a diagnosis of Bipolar and Borderline Personality Disorder. Multiple hospitalizations and years of therapy and psychiatric care and a lot of work within me has brought me to a place where I am healthier in my mental Self than I have been in years. I have the correct “cocktail” of meds and my self help skills and work in Dialectical Behavior Therapy have been my saving grace.

So there you have it – a little bit about me and Day One on the challenge. Share your blog with me, I would love to read others’ words who are on this challenge.

Jenny

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